Apologetics

Yeah I know I flopped. Like major big time. I'm really sorry for what I did, its not like I did it really intentionally to dig things up and find stuff out. Just a really bad coincidence to just happen to google find it and just find out. I do get bored at work and your name just happened to be in front of me in twitter.

What ever I did its out of good intentions. If I know a friend is in trouble, I would definately help. That has always been my character. I mean, if something happened to a friend of yours, wouldn't you try and help or something? If you know something happened to a friend, would you just ignore it and let it go? If so, what kind of friend will I be if I did that? I'm not doing it to be a "good person" or like to make myself feel better, I do geniunely try to help. Its not like I'm saying that I'm not at fault, just that I had good intentions. However, I would like to ask, why would you so no to me about it at first when we are from the same faction that teaches not to do something of that nature. Regardless, I now know that you did so for a reason which of course I didn't know cause I already knew it before I checked on you. I just asked cause I wanted to let you know I'm here if you need help or someone to talk to as I stated in my msg.

I won't say I had a rosy life so far nor would I dare say I had a thorny one but I can say that I had some stumbles and thorns along the way. During some of those walks, there were no one around. Whats worse is those of my own faction didn't do anything for me. Especially those I expected to do so, those from my local country faction. What did the CG do? Did they send me e-mails? Or text me? Or call me? Or even skype me? O.k, those from UL in the region I was in did stuff. Not the things I needed but I feel the sincerety and I appreciate the efforts of those who tried to help. But as a whole no one from my faction really did much. Rather its those outside from us that did far more. That is perhaps one of the primary reasons why when I hear someone is in trouble or someone is in pain I try to help. I do so cause its placed in my heart to help. If I, for any friend can go an extra mile, how about you? My own faction. How much more would I care for you all?

Regardless, I acknowledge what I did was wrong. I just wish you the best and hope that whatever happened this year doesn't plague you anymore.

One of those days?

"Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie

You work on a smile and you go for a ride"

This is the song thats playing in my head all morning. Its one of those days you know where things just go wrong? Now don't close this page or roll your eyes, I'm NOT emo-ing about this or the events that happened. Ever had one of those typical days that you have when u just happen to get up on the wrong side of the bed. First u set the alarm clock but though you wake up to give yourself "5 more mins" which in reality is normally 20-30mins, this day u got 40 mins instead? Then on the way to the train / MRT there is an accident on the road thus making traffic slow, on train theres no seats as usual, and around Paya Lebar MRT station I swear I think I saw someone hanged there or something. Its looks like one of those metal intra-structure of a house or something and there was a man (or at least something that looks really like one from the train) that was hanging from one of the metal beams.

Of course, nothing would make it better by missing the bus and being all blur in work despite doing the work before. Well honestly at this moment, I'm not feeling down. Nor am I feeling emo. More like a careful feeling. Verr careful on what I'm trending on! So I'll just be posting bad day pics on this post just to make it more colourful.